One Year

Yesterday Matthew and I celebrated our one year anniversary. This weekend was proof that babies DO change everything. For about 2 months we had our anniversary plans set- we were going to do a wine tour in Grapevine, and were going to stay the night at the Gaylord Texan. We did not want to do anything too crazy or too far because Jace is so young, but we had to do SOMETHING to celebrate our first anniversary as a married couple. However, our plans had to change and had no other choice. We canceled the hotel room and tour. I cried, and cried like a selfish baby. "We needed that". "We needed that night away just us again". "We needed to celebrate our first anniversary". Oddly, things always happen for a reason and tend to work out. We were able to spend the day that we had planned to be at the wine tour with Jace at the fair, and it was SO worth it. And later that night, my wonderful in-laws watched Jace for us while we went to a nice dinner at Seasons 52 and stayed at a hotel at the Shops At Legacy. And you know what we talked about the entire time? Our son, of course! I know that it will not be the first time that having a baby/child gets in the way of our anniversary, date plans, etc. and I am 100% okay with that. 

Marriage does change everything. Marriage is hard. Children do change everything. Children are hard. But trust me when I say this, they change everything for the better. Do not spend your life afraid to get married or have a family because you are scared of getting hurt or are afraid of 'things changing'. When you marry the right person, the two of you can get through absolutely anything together. When we got married a year ago, if you would have told either of us that we would have a 2 month old a year from now we would have laughed in your face. This first year of marriage with Matthew has been extraordinarily life-changing. We have made ourselves a family. I will forever be the mother of his child, and he will forever be the father of my child. There is nothing that can bring you and your husband closer than seeing what the two of you can create together. I have always loved Matt, and I have said many times "I don't know how I could love him any more than I do", but seeing him as a father has made me love him a million times more than I ever have. Don't get me wrong, there are days where he flusters and aggravates the crap out of me, and I know I do the same to him! But we never forget the reasons why we fell in love, and we continue every day to make each other laugh, encourage one another, trust one another, and make each other feel special and loved. I know every girl that is in love thinks they are the luckiest girl on earth, but I truly know how blessed and lucky I am. I have the best husband in the entire world. I look forward to so many more anniversaries together- plans or no plans.